new spring pieces

with the spring coming so quickly, i knew that this would the perfect time really clear out the old and bring in some new. of course, like many others, i’ve got to stick to a budget. so of course i’ve been scouring the web to find some stores that have the latest and greatest at a decent price. i found some great stores that have some great fashion and i wanted to share them with you!

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misguided: my aunt is actually the first person who introduced me to misguided. i went on their app and searched for some new items to try and add to my closet. they had very good prices. i did order a couple of pieces from them. i kept two of the three because of sizing. i was definitely off in my measurements but thankfully i was able to get at least one item. i got this great black long sleeve top with a cold shoulder. it is super cute and comfortable. it is a little longer than i originally thought, but its great to wear with skinny jeans or leggings without feeling like my butt is on display for the world to see. plus they have a student discount!! can’t go wrong with that!!

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old navy: in general, i love old navy. i love their style and prices. i got this super cute long sleeve striped top with a lace-up detail in the front. it is so unbelievably comfortable. the material is breathable and not constricting. especially for me, i have a wide back so it’s hard to find tops that fit comfortably. i usually find tops that are perfect on my back but so baggy around my stomach area. but this top actually fits perfectly all around. i actually got another top from old navy that day. it was a short sleeve striped top but it was a baggier style of top. which i love with boyfriend jeans and flats. i tried to link both tops but i was only able to find the long sleeve one. but definitely check this one out! Long Sleeve Striped Top

okay so this isn’t a long post but i will keep you updated on other pieces that i buy and where you can them too. check out my post about spring fashion as well for other trends that are very in right now. you will definitely want to add these to your wardrobe soon!

xoxo

 

 

 

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music.

today i wanted to share a topic that is very special to me, music. as a young child, i began to play the piano at the age of 6. when i first started playing, i just fell in love with how i could create beautiful sounds with my hands. i was obsessed with playing disney songs. any songs my teacher would bring for me to learn that was disney, i just loved. it made me feel like i was a princess in that story. i would even sing along for most of the songs that i learned. once i was diagnosed with leukemia at 8, i wasn’t able to play as often. but when i did get those spare moments, it became my escape. it was my chance to free myself from my current situation. i was able to live outside of my reality even for only a few moments. it was an amazing experience. one like no other.

i became amazed at a young age at how much music can affect one’s life and even mood. have you ever thought about that? how you can play one song and it will either make you happy or sad. most of the time without you even realizing it. music can even inspire you without you realizing it. that is the kind of power that it has over you.

granted, i went through a period of time where i stopped wanting to play piano. as i got older, with the effects the leukemia had on my body, i became more and more self-conscious. i just didn’t want to be seen doing anything that would draw attention to myself. i would even wait until everyone was out of the house so that i could practice and sing. those moments were what i looked forward to. even to this day, i have hard time playing in front of people because i just don’t like the attention that it draws to me. but regardless, i had this love that i couldn’t just let go of. for playing music or listening to music.

at a young age, i always wanted to be an artist. i wanted to be someone who created beautiful music. i wanted to be someone who was able to inspire someone or touch someones life with just a song. even at 26 years of age, i still have fear that holds me back from really creating something beautiful. but as the years have gone by, that fear has grown smaller and smaller. and i know that once i allowed myself to really be free again and create something, i will be free from that.

music for me touched my life in more ways that i can explain. it was the only outlet that i had during a touch time in my life. it was my only friend. it was the one person, aside from God, that could understand what i was going through. music was God talking to me. conversing with me on a daily basis through sound. and even though at that time i didn’t know who He really was, i knew that He was talking to me. drawing me closer to Him through this avenue. it’s amazing. there are no words to describe how it makes me feel. but i thank God that he allowed me the chance to grow a love for music.

that was my first experience with music. what was yours? tell me in the comment sections below, i’d love to hear your stories.

xoxo

closet clean out aka the purge

okay so i don’t know about you guys, but everytime i look at my closet, i’m always thinking, “man i really need to go through this stuff..”

well tonight was the night for me to finally take the plunge and actually go through my clothes and get rid of what i don’t wear or need or is no longer in trend. so i wanted to share some of my tips on how i clean out my closet, from the first-time purge to the serious purge.

 

first-time purge: so the first-time purge is one i do solo. i go through my clothes and kind of put them into different piles.

  1. the first pile are the clothes that i like but haven’t worn in a while. i check out what i have and think of last time i wore these items. if it’s been a while, but i still love the piece, it goes into this pile. this pile will normally go back into the closet.
  2. the second pile are things that i haven’t really worn nor do i really care for. be honest ladies, sometimes we have those days where we just buy things because it looks cute on the hanger and it’s on sale. but when we get home and actually try it on, it looks terrible on us but yet we think that at some point we might actually start to like it and wear it. or we think, when we lose a couple pounds we’ll definitely wear this. be honest with yourself, you know you do this. i know i do.

 

once i go through my piles, i will normally get rid of a few of my items from the second pile. usually it only ends up being a few pieces and i keep the rest. as long as i get rid of a few items i tend to feel accomplished.

 

serious purge: okay so now is the serious purge. a few months after i do my first-time purge i will tend to relook at my wardrobe and again put my clothes in the same two piles as above. but this time i enlist the help of a friend or family member. why do i do that? well, i know myself. i know that unless i have someone else helping me i will convince myself to keep everything. and this serious purge time is not the time to keep convincing myself to keep the same clothes that i don’t wear!

 

so, with the help of a friend, i go through the same piles but this time i actually get rid of a good amount of clothes. what do i end up getting rid of?

  1. clothes that i haven’t worn in more than 6 months
  2. clothes that don’t fit right on me
  3. clothes that are no longer trendy
  4. clothes that are certain colors that i know don’t look good on me

your closet should be filled with items that you love to wear. things that fit your body the way you want it to. things that are the right colors and/or patterns that look great with your skin tone and hair coloring. clothing that you can’t wait to wear. if your closet is filled with items that don’t match this criteria, it might be time for you to start purging your closet. this is the first step towards creating an amazing capsule wardrobe as well. once you have the basics down and pieces that are unique and love, you are more strategic about what you buy.

think about what is in your closet. need to purge? use my tips above! let me know how it goes!

xoxo

favorite things..

i never thought of myself as being extremely materialistic. i do love clothes and shopping but if those things were ever taken away from me, i wouldn’t be upset. because in the end, those are just material items that don’t really mean a lot. that being said, there are a few things that i do just love and would hate to not have around me. so tonight, i’m taking you for a tour of my favorite things right now!

  1. i’m going to start out with my bible as one my favorite things. this book gives me such peace, comfort, truth, and wisdom. i love that i can read it any time and i can feel like the Lord is speaking to me. directly to me. it’s not like one of those speaking events you go to and think “man he is speaking to me” when in reality the entire rooms feels that way. no, this word speaks directly to me and only me everytime i open up those pages.
  2. ever since my husband bought me my first swell bottle my life has been changed. all i drink is water and coffee. and i was always carrying a plastic water bottle around. i hate waste so carrying the plastic bottles around just killed me. so my husband surprised me with this swell bottle and i carry it around all the time. the insulation on it keeps my water nice and cold all day long. never again will i carry around a plastic bottle.
  3. for Christmas, my husband got me this leather iphone 7 wallet case. now, it may seem silly to some, but from time to time i need to run out the house on an errand but i hate to carry about my huge bag. so this wallet comes in such handy. i add in my cards and phone and go. and the best part is that the phone attachment is actually a separate phone case that is attached to the wallet by a magnet. (see pictures) beyond brilliant! seriously, this wallet case makes me life so much easier.
  4. when my husband and i were dating, he purchased me my first chi flat iron for my birthday. at this time we weren’t living in the same town, so when i was talking about getting a new flat iron he literally gave me cash and said go and buy one. romantic right? haha! so ulta was having a sale on their chi irons so i went and grabbed one and the rest is history. this flat iron is beyond amazing and so worth the money. i’ve had it for almost 4 years and it still looks and acts brand new. if you’ve ever thought about getting a chi, take the plunge and do it. you will not regret it.
  5. on the day to day, i don’t really wear make up. however, i love to wear either lip gloss or lip stick every day. i feel like if my hair is done and i have lip stick on, i’m having a good day. right now, i’m obsessed with Maybelline lip sticks. in the Maybelline colors i love touchable toupe (940), and divine wine (695).
  6. if i’m not wearing lip stick you can bet i’m wearing eos lip balm. i’ve been using this brand for as long as i can remember and i’ve not purchased another one since. not only is it in a cute case but the flavors are great and moister for my lips is amazing.

there you have it! 6 things that i’m in love with right now. i’m sure in another couple of months these will change since i do like to mix things up a bit. but i would encourage everyone who reads this, try not to focus so much on the material things. life is about love, it’s about family and friendships. it’s about experiences. it’s about helping people. it’s not about getting caught up in the material items we have, while they are great to have. i’ve linked each item below for you to check out on your own! just click on the image to check them out in detail.

so tell me, what are your favorite things right now?!

xoxo

                            

timing is everything

as i’ve gotten older i’m starting to realize that timing really is everything. as much as my personality loves to jump on the opportunity to do something or go somewhere, i have to slow myself down and realize that timing is everything. i haven’t gotten completely used to timing and how to wait on God’s timing. i’m in this stage where i am literally waiting on God’s timing. yes, my husband is still finishing school and we have probably another year left, but i’m so ready for the next thing God has for us! but again, His timing is what i need to wait for. which isn’t always that easy. but it’s necessary.

psalm 27:14 – wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, i say, on the Lord!

who knows where we will be in the next year. all i can do is wait. but what i have learned through that waiting is that this is a great time to better myself. whether that mean through diet and exercise. or even a spiritual diet, getting my relationship with the Lord back to where it needs to be. it could even learning a new talent or skill. this is my time to do that. so while i hate the waiting stage, i’m starting to enjoy having the time to learn what i can.

in the beginning of the year, i created a vision board for the first time ever. i don’t know why i never thought about doing one in the past, but this year i just felt empowered. i figured, if i’m going to be here for another year or two or however, i’m going to start putting vision to my life. i put things on there like a new car, paying off school debt, writing music, working on an ep and more. i decided that this was my year. my year to be productive and to really put vision back into my life. i feel like i lost it for a bit there. but it’s back and i’m excited. God is going to do some amazing things this year, i can feel it. and i’m just happy that i can play even a small part in that.

in the next months, i’ll be adding more to how my vision board is coming and how God is proving Himself faithful through it all. so make sure you are following my blog to keep up and you are signing up for my emails!

 xoxo

spring trends on a budget

okay ladies, so i know that you have all been checking out the nyfw posts and seeing these gorgeous new collections that are out! but if you are also like me then you are longing for some fresh new pieces but need to stay on budget. i feel ya. trust me.

well what i’ve done today is research some of the latest spring 2017 trends and where you can find some great pieces for a low price. are you ready? i know i am!

right now some of the biggest colors are: pinks (any shade), yellows (any shade), lapis blue, flame (a shade of orange), and more. check out an extensive list here.

if you’re like me, the thought of wearing another color other than black, white or grey just makes the hairs on the back of your neck stand up straight. but i promise when you see these pieces i’ve found for you, you will change your mind. i know i did. hence why i already ordered some of these pieces! (shhhhh don’t tell my husband!)

 

trends to look out for:

florals

stripes

slouchy trenches

military jackets

one shoulder looks

 

of course there are more but i’ve picked a few of my favorites to highlight today.

okay, so i don’t normally do a lot of florals or any print for that matter, but here are some pieces that i might just have to get very soon!!

how this works?? i’ve linked each item that i’ve found and loved (basically did the work for you!) so all you have to do is check these out for yourself and tell me what you think below! here we go!!

florals:

  1. victorian ruffle blouse with tie neck – target ($22.99) this top is extremely gorgeous, plus it has a little black in it, which of course calls out to me.
  2. women’s bomber jacket – target ($39.99) this jacket is beyond awesome. bomber jackets are also very trendy right now so you can mix two trends in one item. please just promise you will at least look at this item!
  3. mid-rise pixie ankle pants – old navy ($29.00) this pants are awesome!!! sooooo many outfit choices with these beauties. plus you can expand your floral horizons to your bottoms and just have fun with this piece.
  4. grey embroidered pointed toe pumps – misguided ($63.00) if your wallet is feeling a little generous, these are definitely the needed splurge item. these shoes are beyond gorgeous. plus the floral print on these is everything.
  5. patterned ruffled blouse – h&m ($49.99) – this top is super cute. not 100% that my personal body shape would work well with this top but it was too cute to not include. i love the print and the added ruffles to it. it’s definitely a bolder look but i am totally loving it.

stripes:

  1. women’s button up shirt dress – target ($34.99) this dress is a great way to incorporate some print into your wardrobe. especially if you aren’t 100% comfortable with print. plus, the detailing on this dress is amazing.
  2. relaxed lace-up tee – old navy ($19.94) another great addition to your closet here. a perfect combination of trendy and comfortable!
  3. striped bardot romper – misguided ($40.00) okay so this is may be more of a splurge item but it is definitely worth it. this romper is perfect for spring and can take you right into summer. promise you will check this one out!
  4. black wrap waist striped satin shorts – misguided ($36.00) another great find that will take you from spring into summer. these shorts are definitely a must have!
  5. short pleated top – h&m ($39.99) this top is perfect to take from work to an evening out. the structure of the top is my favorite part.

coats/dusters:

  1. trench coat – old navy ($58.00) this trench is gorgeous. a little more on the structured side, but gorgeous none the less. if you’re looking for a more relaxed look check out the next couple of choices.
  2. oversized waterfall duster coat nude – misguided ($63.00) this coat is beyond gorgeous. definitely on the more relaxed side if you’re wanting more of that slouchy look.
  3. nude long sleeve d ring detail maxi duster coat – misguided ($54.00) another great coat that is more on the slouchy side. it’s a great color and the detail on it is amazing.
  4. coat with draped lapels – h&m ($69.99) if you need a classic black trench this is the one to get. the structure and belted detail just elevates this classic look.

there you have it guys! a few of my favorite trends and where you can find them.

is there something else you want to see? let me know in the comments below!

xoxo

the struggle is real.

i am not the most confident person in the world. because of that, it’s hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. by nature, i’m more on the introverted side of the spectrum and i’ve lived comfortably on that side. i started this blog with the intention of trying to stretch myself. trying to stretch myself to bust out of the norm. it hasn’t been an easy route to take but i’m forcing myself to take it know that it will help me in the end. i love being able to try and help anyone and everyone that i come in contact with. which is one of the reasons i decided to start this blog. try to use this as a way to reach more people. to help them. to encourage them. as a Christian, i know that it’s my job to show love to those i come across in this life of mine. for me, showing love can mean helping to encourage someone or help them with a problem they might have. plus, among other things, i love to write. blogging seemed like a good match for me.

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but blogging isn’t an easy thing to do. especially with you already have a full-time job, you are a full-time graduate student, plus you are married. and on top of that, my husband and i travel often leading worship at churchs in our surrounding area and states. so my time during the days run out faster than i can blink sometimes. and so does my energy. but i’ve fully committed to everything i’m doing so i won’t give up. it has been a while since i’ve written and posted a blog post, so i wanted to share this one today. i am also working on another post more about fashion which will come out in a few more days as i get everything together. but today’s post is more about real life. how messy it is. how unstable it can be sometimes. but one thing i will say, is that the one person that can keep me grounded is God.

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seriously. my husband and my family just drive me crazy at times. and because i’m stressed out with school and work, arguments come a lot easier than you would like to accept. but through that God has been giving me the strength day by day to make it. yes, i mess up at times and just pile drive over what He has planned for me sometimes, but He still gives me another chance to make it better. and with every chance i get, i’m trying to make things better. trying not to let work consume me so much. trying to understand that i can only control what i do and not what other people do, and that is okay. because i am kind of controlling, it’s hard for me to understand or even get used to.

but everyday i’m learning more and more that i need to give that control and give it up to God. let Him take care of things in His way and His time. and build my faith to know that He will. and trust Him to do it. it’s never easy to trust someone you can’t see, but that’s where faith comes in. even though i can’t see Him, i can feel Him around me. sometimes it just takes us slowing down and being still to really sense His presence. and that is what i’m doing now. slowing down and realizing that life is a struggle, but in His strength, i’ll be just fine.

 

till next time lovelies.

xoxo

who am i?

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so for those of you who don’t know me at all, this post is for you! and probably for those who do know me might still benefit from this. so i realized i started this blog without really officially introducing myself to everyone. so i wanted to spend some time tonight doing just that. my name is megan alexis perez. i am 26 years old. i an originally from new york, i lived in yonkers and long island for about 15 years. when i 15 years old my dad got called by the Lord to go into ministry so he moved us to lakeland, florida so that he can attend southeastern university. i was in florida for about 9 years before i moved up here to pennsylvania. going from new york to florida was not an easy transition, i must say. i find new york and florida to be polar opposites.

not only in weather. it was very shocking to me. i remember in high school, the very first time that my brother and i were asked to hang out with some friends was quite the experience. they asked us if we wanted to go over and go shooting. now mind you, we just moved down here from new york. in new york, going shooting isn’t a good thing. like, you just don’t go out shooting somewhere for fun. that is not a thing. seriously. i remember going home and telling my parents that and they had to explain what they were talking about. my brother and i looked at each other and thought “really?! they do that for fun!!!???” so out our comfort zone.

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that move was probably the most difficult for me. i left a lot in new york. but i did find a lot in florida. the Lord really did a lot in me while i was down there. after high school, i ended up going to a state university first. the friends i had in high school all went to that school and i wanted to go with them. plus my boyfriend at the time was going and i didn’t want to be alone. so my first year of college was not good at all. i know many people don’t know this, and i probably shouldn’t be talking about this but who cares. the past is the past. so my first year of college all i did was hang out with my friends and boyfriend. barely went to class and barely did homework. of course my actions came with consequences. i didn’t do well in my classes and because of it i was asked not return until i got my gpa up. it was so disappointing. i was so broken. i couldn’t believe that i had allowed myself to get that far deep. i was so disappointed. after that, i knew that i needed to basically take my life back and get things on the straight and narrow real quick.

i changed my major (i started as a pre-med biology major) to music and went to community college for a year. some events took place during that year which caused me to make the move back home with my parents and attend southeastern. i ended up graduating from southeastern university with my bachelors in music business with a minor in church music.

i will say that i was very happy i made that move back home. it was hard at first, but i know that that was the Lord working. i ended up meeting my husband my junior year in college. we met at a worship night, another story for another time. we were friends for a little over two years before we actually started dating officially. and about a year after that we were engaged. five months later we were married. it was crazy but, it was God. he is my best friend. and the love of my life. and in a few years, he will be my baby daddy! (this is not a pregnancy announcement lol)

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I will say that my life has not gone the way that i actually thought it would. i mean i thought that i would be close to finishing up medical school at this point in my life. i didn’t anticipate being married until i was about 28-29. and i was totally fine with that. but i would not change anything about my life right. maybe i would change to be a couple pounds lighter but that’s about it.

my entire life, i feel, has been centered around God. most of the time in ways that i couldn’t see. i couldn’t see Him working things out for my good. i couldn’t always feel Him there next to me even though He was always there. i know i have made my mistakes in the past, but He never left me. growing up, i took to music as my way to express myself. music was my escape. when i came to the Lord, i combined both passions and now leading worship is my “escape.” it’s my passion. and not just leading worship. but also taking my knowledge and experience and pouring that into others to help train them in worship and all that it entails. combine that with traveling and you have my dream job. i know that the Lord is preparing us for this dream job (at least i’m praying He does!).

that is pretty much the outer layer of who i am aside from the fact that i am fashion obsessed. i did work in retail for over 6 years and did a lot in visual merchandising, so over time my love for fashion and styling has grown. a little out of control for my budget i might add! haha

so that is me in a nutshell. there is so much more to who i am that is so hard to really just encompass in one blog post. but i wanted to introduce myself to you guys officially. i’m so excited about this blog and where it is going to be going in the next few months. please, if there is a topic you would like me to cover, don’t hesitate to reach out and ask! i would love to hear from you guys!

xoxo

patience.

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patience. waiting. two words not many people like. i know i didn’t. well i don’t. most of the time. while i’ve gotten used to waiting for things, my patience is taking a while to grow. there’s a difference you know. between waiting and being patient. patience, my own definition of course, is waiting for something or someone but waiting with a good attitude. waiting, for me, doesn’t come with much of a good attitude. i don’t like waiting. i’m a go-getter. i like to do things right when i think of them. i’ll work day and night on a project just to see it completed. i’ve never been a patient person because of that. i don’t like waiting. that’s just something i’m still working on with the Lord. and you all know, it’s never about our timing it’s always about His. so you can imagine how frustrated i can get. waiting on God. waiting on Him to show up. waiting on Him to answer. waiting on Him to move. for a person that is a go-getter, that loves change, waiting on God isn’t an easy thing for me. it’s sucks actually. but that waiting, has taught me patience. at the very beginners level of course, i’m not perfect.

patience, like i said before is waiting with a good attitude. my patience lately is wearing thin. i’m in a place right now that i am waiting on God. i have no choice but to wait on Him. while he is still opening doors in certain areas, the biggest area of my life right now, my career, is the one that is in the waiting room. and everyday, i’m getting more and more tired. tired of waiting. hoping that the next day, He’ll show me the next step. hoping the next day, He’ll tell me what to do. but it just hasn’t happened. and that is so frustrating. i’m just being real with you. waiting on God isn’t an easy thing nor is it fun.

my dream, is to travel the world and worship God. i want to help churches grow their worship teams and departments. i want to teach others about worship, about true worship to God. i want to inspire young people to live lives on fire for God. to live a life of integrity. of honesty. of love for people and for God. that is what i want to do. that is my dream job. but right now my reality is working at a university in the financial aid department. now, i like my job, love my boss, and love my co-workers. but lately the stress levels have increased greatly and the fun just isn’t there anymore. my heart isn’t completely in it anymore. and for me, that kills me. everything i do, no matter what it is, i put my heart and soul into it. my last job, i didn’t like some of the aspects that job at all. i would get sad when i had to go to work. i would go to work sick, even though i knew i should stay home and rest. but no matter what i was feeling, i put in overtime when they needed me too. i was there on my days off when they needed me. i poured my whole life into that job, not because i liked it but because i knew i had to do this. it’s wasn’t for my boss; it was for God. i’ve been working for Him for years now. but there comes a time when you stop and think, when can i work at my dream? when can that be my only job? am i missing something? did i do something wrong?

those are the thoughts that go through your mind. and i’m sure you’ve thought the same thing too. it’s a tough place to be in. and as i sit here writing this, i’m in that tough spot. what do i do? i came home today from another long and stressful day at work, and just put on some worship music. my favorite song right now is here waiting by david and nicole binion of covenant worship. there’s a part that says, “don’t be far from me. i’m here waiting for you. God i’m not moving, i’m here waiting on You.” once i heard that, it all became clear to me again. a little bit of true patience just grew in me tonight. this song helps to remind me in situations what true patience is all about. it’s about here, waiting on God. doesn’t matter how long it takes. it’s about not moving, but waiting here for Him. i may not like the place i’m in right now. but i choose to wait here for God to move. and i choose to love every moment of this waiting period, even though at times i know i will get frustrated. i will continue to wait for Him to show up and show me where to go.

in times like today, i need to tell myself, “it’s not about my timeline it’s about Gods.” Gods timing is the most important. i hope when you’re reading you feel encouraged. you may not like the stage that your in right now. it may be difficult. it may feel like your being stretched in ways you never thought you could be. it may be emotional and just down right now fun. but know that where you are at right now is where God wants you to be. he is in the process of breaking and molding you to remove the impurities within you. He’s drawing you closer to His heart. during times like these, remember to continue chasing after Him even if you don’t feel like He’s chasing after you. He’s still there. and He will never leave.

patience. it’s a learning process. Xoxo

size doesn’t matter

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for years i’ve struggled with the thought of “size matters.” as i’ve gotten older, i’ve come realize that it really doesn’t. your size has nothing to do with who you are as a person. your size doesn’t control your character. your size doesn’t control your heart or your actions. so why is it that as women, we put so much emphasis on our size? as if, when we drop down a couple pounds our lives will somehow magically become perfect. that if we could just lose a couple of pounds, everything will be alright. and where has that thinking gotten us exactly? more and more young girls are growing up with these self-confidence issues that it is a little crazy. but i must admit to you, i used to buy into that thinking. for a long period of time, i bought into the whole “lose weight and you’ll be happy” idea. it was a very sad time in my life. all i cared about was losing weight. i tried every diet, took every weight loss pill, did the whole work out thing and nothing happened. surprise, surprise.

i soon realized how deep this problem really was. it wasn’t so much about losing weight as it was the thought that if i lost the weight, i would be accepted. i just wanted to belong. it was a hard time in my life let me tell you. it almost sucks to write about it, because it makes it that much more real! ugh! anyways..

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being the perfect weight is hard for women, especially in the society we live in. where everywhere we turn there are gorgeous thin supermodels making us feel less than ourselves because we aren’t a size 0. i hate that. i hate that there are girls out there that are starving themselves to become something that God didn’t create them to be. as i’ve gotten older, i have realized that i will never be a size 0. and i’m perfectly okay with that. God created me just the way i am. i am beautiful. i am a daughter of the King! if you’re reading this, take a minute to say that yourself. tell yourself you are beautiful. tell yourself you are a daughter of the king. now go to the bathroom mirror, look yourself in the eyes, and say it again. it’s extremely powerful. i cry just thinking about it. our words have the power of life and death. and we have the power to control what we say about ourselves.

what really matters, is your heart. i think that is where a lot of the problem is. girls think that if they lose weight they will be accepted by everyone. but what happens when you lose that weight and people still don’t accept you because you are mean spirited? or when they find out how selfish you are? what are you going to do then? it doesn’t matter what size you are. people care more about your personality. your heart. how kind you are. how caring you are. that is what makes you, you. not what size jeans you wear!

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i know this isn’t the longest post ever, but i hope after reading this you gained a little more confidence in yourself. knowing that you are beautiful. knowing that you were fearfully and wonderfully made. knowing that you are the daughter of a King. a King who, by the way, thinks you are the most beautiful version of you. who wouldn’t change a thing about the way you look. a King that cares more about your heart than what size clothes you wear. how many of us can say that about someone else?

is this something that you struggle with? leave a comment below and lets pray together! xoxo

 

outfit details:

white button down: old navy (btw this top is on crazy sale!!!! less than $10!!)

black skinny jeans: levi’s