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No Shopping (Part I)

Published on January 17, 2018 by meganaperezLeave a comment

So, my I decided to give myself another challenge this year. Not only is my new word such a challenge (see my previous post), but I have also decided to not to purchase any clothes or shoes until April. Now, for some that may sound super easy. But for someone like me, a shopaholic, that is really hard to think about!!!

Some may even wonder why I decided to do this. Well, my biggest reason was we’re going to be moving within the next 6 months. I don’t know exactly where we’ll be moving to just yet because we’re still job searching. So, I don’t know if I’ll be staying up north for a few more years or moving back down south. So why would I spend more money on clothes for the north if there’s a possibility that I may not stay up here?! Logical right?! But still…going to be very hard.

This weeks post is all about finding what is in your closet and making it work in multiple ways. That is going to be my life for the next couple months so I figured why not share those ideas with you all!

First up, the basic. Everyone has a basic tee shirt. I have multiple so now is the time to bring those babies out and start using and abusing them!

The first outfit I chose was a basic tee with jeans and sneakers. This is a casual outfit that you can wear anywhere and even if the weather is a bit colder out, throw on a cardigan or blazer and your set! I also paired with outfit with my engraveable bangle from Stella & Dot, bar necklace and gold earrings. These pieces really dress up this outfit and add another element of style.

The second outfit is one I chose for work. Basic top with a midi skirt. This outfit is super comfortable for me and just a downright classic. Through on some tights and booties and I’m set for work! Because I work at a conservative university, I’ll pair this with another long cardigan like this one here. Because I went for an all black look I decided to pair it with this silver statement necklace and stud earrings. This necklace can actually be worn 6 different ways so I have a lot of option in terms of style for this one. I paired this with our wrap bracelet and my Alex and Ani bracelets as well.

The third outfit is one I’d wear for date night! Which don’t come often but when they do, I gotta dress up! I paired this tee with a fun mini skirt that I had. I love the design on this skirt that is makes perfect for a date night outfit. For the colder months, I’m also pairing this with tights and booties. You could also add a leather jacket over top. But since I don’t have one just yet (and now I won’t buy one until May) I’ll stick with this look. Because the skirt has so much detail you don’t really need too much in the jewels area. I decided to pair this with my bar necklace, gold earrings, and simple bangle.

So there you have it! This is one option that I wanted to share with you all! Because I’m going to be doing this for next couple months, I do have some other outfit ideas I want to share later on. But I figured these are good to start! Let me know which outfit was your favorite in the comments below!

If you aren’t already following my social media account (@MeganA.Perez) make sure you do that today for some daily fashion inspiration!

Love you guys!

Xoxo

New Year’s Resolutions!

Published on January 3, 2018January 3, 2018 by meganaperezLeave a comment

Okay so most of the time New Year’s Resolutions are so personal that not many people share them. But I decided to share mine with you so that I can make sure I’m accountable! Most of the time when people make these resolutions they don’t create actual steps that they can take to make those goals come to fruition. So, what I did was write my goals down. I wasn’t very specific in the actual goal just yet. I just wrote the main goal down. Once I did that, I went back and started writing down steps on how I’m going to accomplish those goals. Of course, my goals are based around my business, blog, faith and health, but you can just use these as examples to create your own resolutions for your personal life. Check it out below:

Lose 30 pounds by May
1. Work out at least 30 minutes a day 5 days a week. Allowed one skip day if needed, but the skip day can only be taken on a Wednesday.
2. Cut bread and other carbs during the week.
Take more “me” time during the week.
1. Take at least 20 minutes a day and do something for yourself. Whether that be soaking your feet and painting your toe nails, doing a face mask and relaxing, coloring, or even song writing. Do something to help you relax and clear your mind every day.
Blog more
1. Take time every week to work on blog posts. It could be a few minutes every day or an hour every week. Take some time to write, take pics and post. Only way to grow is to be consistent! Post every Tuesday!
Sell more (Stella & Dot)
1. Reach out to at least one person every week for potential orders or hostesses.
Save more
1. No clothes or shoe shopping until after graduation in May.
2. No more unnecessary spending.
3. Start searching for coupons for groceries.
4. Limit the amount of times we go out to eat to only the weekends we are traveling.
Pray more
1. Be intentional about my prayer time. Start every morning with prayer and devotionals and end the day with prayer.

What I did start doing as well is writing everything I accomplished on a wall calendar. It honestly feels so great to be able to write down my daily accomplishments. If you have never tried that, you really need to. It feels amazing!!!

Another tip that I do is I get a new planner every January. I don’t like the calendars that start in August it just completely throws me off. I always get my planners from Target just because they have the cutest ones. But all you need is a planner that you can schedule your week and month.

Also, PRINT OUT OR WRITE OUT YOUR RESOLUTIONS!! I cannot stress this enough. If the only place you write them down is your phone or computer, you will never keep to them. Write them down and hang them on your bathroom mirror or the kitchen wall. Somewhere where you can look at them every day. If you can’t look at them every day than you are going to forget them. Trust me, it happens to me all the time!

Here is a link to Target to check out all the different kinds of planners they have. Click here to shop them.

Let’s make this year a great one! Let me know what your favorite tip was and share some of your resolutions below!! xoxo

My Fall favorites!!

Published on July 26, 2017July 26, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

Here are some my Fall Favorites right now!!! The first five items I’m going over are all from the Nordstrom Anniversary Sale and the last three are from the new Fall line at Stella & Dot!

First up are those super cute caramel suede mules from Kristin Cavallari. These are super comfortable and fit so great on my feet. I did find out that they fit perfectly to the length of my foot. I contemplated going up a size but I chose not too because the rest of the shoe fits perfectly around my foot. I purchased a size 8 and normally wear a size 8 shoe.

Second is that gorgeous bell sleeve top. That color is amazing. I cannot get enough of it. The bow details on the side are everything. I normally wear a size large and I ordered a size large. This top fits so perfectly on me. I have a wider back so I usually find it hard to purchase tops but this one fits perfect. I’m so in love with it and can’t wait to start wearing it!

Third is this Billabong sweatshirt. I also purchased a large and it fits great. This sweater is extremely comfortable and cozy and will be perfect once the weather starts to cool off. It does have a baggy fit to it but the size I purchased still allowed for that baggy feel. I purchased a large, and it fits pretty much how the picture up top looks.

Fourth is this Adidas sleeveless tank. This is the first athletic type shirt that I have purchased and just love it. I’ve seen many of my friends with these athletic shirts and I’ve been on the look out for one that I could wear. I order a large in this top because I wasn’t sure how it would fit. I figured it was a little bigger than normal, it would be fine, because I don’t really like tight fitting clothing anyways. I will say that I am 5 foot 3 inches tall and this top goes down until about a hands length from my knee. So I could throw on some leggings with this top or just wear skinny jeans and tuck in the front a bit for a more slouchy look.

Fifth are these Steve Madden thigh high boots. Now I’m a little sad about this purchase because I decided to return them. I am completely in love with these boots and the style. I’ve been wanting a thigh high pair of boots but I found that these were not the ones for me. I found that the shape of my legs didn’t complement the style of the shoe. Because they are a thigh high boot and my thighs are on the thicker side, they were actually not comfortable for me to wear. If you don’t have thick thighs, then these are definitely the boots for you! They are super cute and I’m bummed I can’t keep them but I gotta go with what is comfy!

Sixth is this new Taj Clutch from Stella and Dot!! This clutch is seriously giving me life!! The embroidered detail on this is beyond amazing. I love the design and the colors. These colors are so versatile that they will go with so many different colors that you will wear in Fall. Not only is this an amazing date night bag, you can also rock this with your favorite tee shirt and jeans for a super cool day time look!

Seventh is this gorgeous necklace from Stella and Dot called the Terney Layered Necklace. For the one price you pay, you can wear this necklace in five different ways!! Can you believe that?! FIVE DIFFERENT WAYS!! The detail on this piece is amazing. The mix of colors and texture really take this piece to the next level. Make you click on the image to check out this necklace, this is one you need for fall!!!

Last but definitely not least is the Bora Fringe Necklace. This is one my favorites because of the bronze and rose gold colors on this. You can still wear this with many different colors clothing wise but this necklace definitely takes your outfit to the next level.

Make sure you click on each image to shop each item. I’m telling you, you will not regret this!! These are some amazing pieces that are available now for Fall. It’s definitely the time to start building up your Fall wardrobe!

Which items are your favorite?! Leave a comment in the section below to let me know! Xoxo

Fall Line is here!

Published on July 19, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

If you saw my previous post than you would have seen that I just became a Stylist with Stella & Dot! I wanted to share the gorgeous Fall line that just launched!!

Check out these beauties here: www.StellaDot.com/MeganPerez

Stella & Dot

Published on July 6, 2017July 6, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

Hello everyone!!! I wanted to share some exciting news! I’ve decided to become an Independent Stylist with Stella & Dot! I’m super excited for this journey and want to share my personalized webpage where you guys can shop until you drop! Here are some super cute pieces to share with you guys!! Click on each image to shop some more looks!

xoxo

Also shop at www.StellaDot.com/MeganPerez.

the importance of a vacation!

Published on June 16, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

sometimes life just gets so crazy for me. my husband and i stay extremely busy so when we get the chance to go away for a couple of days, we jump at the chance. a vacation is something i will always recommend to anyone who has a busier then normal lifestyle. even if it’s just for a few days, go away and recharge yourself. when my husband and i decided to go on a cruise, i was beyond ready and excited for this. we only did a 4day/3night cruise, but that was exactly what we needed. time away from the craziness and our phones for a chance to relax and just be together. most of the time, even when we’re together, one or both of us is on our phone so we’re not really together. which is another tip for newly married couples, put the technology down when you’re spending time together. learn to talk to each other about things. joke around together. act silly with each other. just have fun together and learn to be together with no interruptions. even if it’s just for 15 minutes a day, trust me, you’ll see a difference in your relationship.

we thoroughly enjoyed our cruise, which was through royal caribbean to the bahamas. this was our first cruise together as a married couple so it was a fun experience. normally, you need to go through an experience so you can be more prepared for the future. after this trip, i now know what i need to bring on my next cruise just in case. the first excursion we did was a beach day. and let me tell you, that sun down there is no joke. even though i applied sunscreen like 4 times that day, we still got burnt. and not just a small little sun burn but like lobster face burnt. it was terrible and i was so upset. clearly the sunscreen i brought was not strong enough. the only good thing is that we didn’t plan to do a lot of excursions. this vacation was more for lounging around and relaxing. so we brought our books to read and were able to hang out on the pool deck under the covering.

so what i wanted to do is share my experience and let you guys know what i would recommend that you bring with you on your next vacation. i always like to be over prepared and im sure you do too!

sunscreen: so we brought 30 spf with us. not strong enough. i would highly recommend going with 50 spf or higher, especially if you’re going to the caribbean. the sun down there is not the same so don’t act like you know it is. be safe!
aloe vera: i would highly recommend bringing some aloe vera with you especially if you’re going on a cruise. that stuff sells out quickly on the boat and it’s so overpriced anyways. in the case that you do get burned you’re going to be happy you brought this, trust me. if you don’t have aloe available to you, bring preparation-H. it may sound crazy but this stuff legit helps relieve any burns you may get being in the sun. we tried it for my husband and it worked.
small handbag: normally i love to tote around my huge MK wherever im traveling. but i have learned to carry light. bringing only the essentials. and for those times where i need to bring a lot of with me, i will always bring a small cross body with me. whenever you’re traveling, no matter where you go, i would always recommend a cross body with a zipper top. that way you can ensure your belongings are protected.
books: the best things about vacation is that you can spend all day reading your favorite book and relax without feeling judged. this is the place and time to do it! sometimes cruise ships can seem boring if you’re not into drinking or gambling (which im not) so having another form of entertainment for yourself is key.
comfortable shoes: this is something i missed. i wish i would have gone to like sketchers or nike to grab some comfy sandals to wear around the beach. having good shoes is no joke either.

so there you have it! 5 of my top suggestions for traveling, either on a cruise or on land. what are your favorite travel goodies?? leave them in the comments below!

xoxo

weight loss craze!

Published on May 7, 2017May 7, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

i don’t know if you’re like me, but im obsessive over the strangest things. well some strange, some not so strange. im obsessed with my skin, my hair, my eyebrows and of course my weight. ever since i finished chemotherapy, ive been obsessed with my weight. mainly because while i was on chemo, i gained so much weight. of course, as a young girl it messed with my self-esteem, i think at that age it’s something that is natural. but as ive gotten older, that obsession has both grown at times yet died at times. i go through these stages of my life where i don’t care what i weigh, and other times i can’t stop thinking about it. what ive come to realize, is all this obsessing has made me miss out on a lot of things. ive stopped enjoying food because i was so worried about gaining weight. i would stress over it so much that i actually had a reverse effect on my body. because i was so stressed over my weight, i would gain weight!! but that is just how my body works. so lately, ive come to this conclusion: this is who i am. this body is what God created for me. do i want to make sure im taking care of myself health wise? of course!! but no longer will i allow the stress of weight loss to control me. so today i wanted to share some of my favorite tips on how you can make small changes toward a healthier you!

multi vitamin: the easiest way to start on the trail to a healthy life is picking up a multi vitamin. there are so many options out there right now, but i wanted to share a few of my favorite.

natures bounty women’s multivitamin: this is a good option for those who hate taking pills. these gummies taste good and are a great way to start adding in some vitamins to your day.
juice plus: i’ve been taking these vitamins for over two years. i absolutely love them and how i’ve felt while taking them. i take the pill form but here are the gummy options. there are two option, the orchard and garden blend and they are made from 17 different fruits, vegetables, and grains. for those who tend to not eat a ton of fruits or veggies everyday, this is a great option.

8 glasses of water: another tip is to make sure you are drinking at least 8 glasses of water everyday! this is something i’m always working on because i tend to get caught up in my work that before i know it, it’s already time to leave and i haven’t drank any water. one way that does help to remind me is having a colorful water bottle. because the color draws my attention away from the computer screen, it prompts me to take a drink. here are super cute water bottle options for you!

s’well water bottle: i love this water bottle because it’s completely insulated. it keeps my cold water cold all day long.
yeti insulated tumbler: another great option. they come in fun colors and also keep your drinks cold all day long. my co-worker has this brand and is completely in love with it.
contigo snapseal: this is another great option. my close friend and boss both have this brand and also love it. i’m pretty sure my boss loved it so much that she bought two!

add some color: adding some color to your food choices is always a great option! the more color, the better! add in some salad, fruits, or veggies to your meal to add some extra healthy love to your meal.

take a walk / add activity: this one, of course, isn’t my favorite but i do it. because i sit all day long at my current job, i like to make sure i spend a minimum of 30 minutes doing some kind of activity. that could be going for a long walk with my husband or getting on our stationary bike. whatever activity you like to, do at least 30 minutes a day and it will definitely help. better yet, start taking the stairs as a small step to add in some activity!

relax: this is something that i’m not the best at, but is something that is needed! stress can cause weight gain. no matter how much you change your food choices, being stressed will cause your body to gain weight. trust me, it’s happened to me plenty of times. the more i let my body relax, the easier it is for me to remain at a healthier state.

of course, these are all my personal opinions, but from my 26 years of like, i have learned what to do and what not to do when it comes keeping myself healthy. do you have tips that you do to keep yourself at your best? share them below!

xoxo

victoria beckham for target

Published on April 15, 2017April 15, 2017 by meganaperez2 Comments

can we please talk about this new victoria beckham collection at target????!! i have been waiting for this release since i first saw it announced. i could barely contain myself! luckily the day it came out, i was able to snag some pieces. i live in a small town, which this time came to my advantage! after church on sunday, i decided to sneak away by myself to “take a drive.” meaning i was on my way target to check out this collection. sneaky, i know, but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do!

i arrived at target at the perfect time. it wasn’t busy at all. i walked up to the new collection and just started browsing. sadly, a lot of pieces were sold out in my size but i was able to still get two pieces that i loved. the first was her scalloped black halter top and the second was a black romper. both caught my eye because of the detail, and let’s face it I cannot stay away from black. it’s my color!

i quickly grabbed these two pieces and put them in my cart so i could get to the dressing room. like i mentioned before, there were a lot of items i really wanted to try on but they were either an x-small or x-large. nothing that worked for me. normally I could do an xl in tops and get away with it, but the way her sizes ran, it was too big. anywho, dressing room time.

i tried on these two pieces and of course fell in love instantly, i mean who wouldn’t. the top was extremely comfortable and i just felt great in it. it’s great to wear with jeans and heels or flats and it’s perfect with dress pants for work. the detail on this top is amazing too. im not one for much overstated items, which is why i think im so drawn to this collection. victoria beckham does an amazing job at creating fashion that is eye-catching yet simple. perfect combination for me and my personality. the top size wise was good. right now, it fits more on the loose side which is what i prefer. i will most likely need to take it in at some point just because im going through this workout/weight loss phase. (not quite sure how long it will last but we shall see.) but the way the top is now, it perfect size wise for me.

the romper was also the perfect size. i really don’t like clothes that are too fitted. for me, im just not comfortable in extremely tight clothes, especially rompers. to me, a romper should be lose and comfy yet stylish. which is this what this romper does. it has great structure and simple detailing that i love. i will say that because of the size run, if i lose anymore weight, i will have to take this in. it’s not meant to be extremely fitted so just be mindful of that.

i wasn’t able to get anything else cause there was nothing left in my size. but ive linked some other items that recently released with the victoria beckham collection here so that you can shop them for yourself! happy shopping loves!!

xoxo

wedding day

Published on March 28, 2017March 28, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

this day two years ago i remember getting ready for one of the biggest days of my life. i, megan ocasio, am getting married. something i never thought i would do to be honest. but i knew it was the best decision that i made. saying yes to the man that i love. it was such a crazy day. it went by extremely fast. i just remember waking up thinking “holy crap i’m getting married today…” it was almost a surreal thought. i didn’t think that i would even doing this, ever. my husband is my best friend. i don’t know what i would do without him. he really is one of the only persons in my life that actually understand me. because let’s face it, i am weird. i am sarcastic. i have an attitude at times. but he knows how to deal with me and he knows how to handle me. i’ve been with guys in the past that just let me control every part of the relationship because they didn’t know how to handle me or how to deal with my emotions. but thank God that He brought me a man that can handle all of this craziness! plus he is super fine which is a huge bonus.

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as a child, i never pictured what my wedding day would look like. if you know my testimony at all, to be honest i didn’t even think i would make it to see a wedding day of any kind. so when it came time to actually plan my wedding, good Lord. it was very difficult. and then, we decided to have a very short engagement so i had to plan this entire thing in 5 months. With my maid of honor living over an hour away and my mom living in another state. it was so hard. i remember my mom telling me that i needed to get a wedding planner book. i put it off for a couple weeks but finally pushed myself to go to barnes and noble. when i finally got there and found the aisle i needed, i broke down. i basically had a panic attack in the middle of the wedding planner aisle in this store. i’m like sitting on the floor staring at all these books. i had no idea which one i should choose or what should i do. i ended up calling my mom freaking out over it. thank goodness she calmed me down, and was able to help me decide on one. but to be honest, i didn’t even use it that much!! i should have saved my $30!! anywho, that was such a quick period of time in my life. i almost feel like we should have waited a bit longer so that we can just enjoy our engagement and be able to celebrate more. but in the end, i wouldn’t change it. cause if i’m honest, i’m not the type of person who likes to wait anyways. so the way it worked out was perfect for me. stressful as it still was.

i definitely lucked out during my engagement time because my sister-in-law and mother-in-law really helped out with the concept and decorations for my wedding. my mother-in-law is amazing at floral arrangements, she used to actually have a flower shop years ago, so she created such beautiful flower arrangements for me. both also helped me with the color schemes and everything. for the women out there that are like me (basically never thought about a wedding or what you would want) find people that you really trust and allow them to help you. i’m telling you, when i opened myself up to the ideas that other people brought to me, 1. they were really good and i used some of them but 2. they sparked creativity in me and that allowed me to think up some other ideas for other aspects of the wedding. did everything come out perfectly? oh heck no. and your wedding day may not be perfect either, but that is okay. because you shouldn’t be there for a “perfect” wedding you should be there because you are marrying your best friend.

my wedding day flew by. i mean it just went by so fast i remember laying in bed that night thinking “what the hell just happened?!” seriously. all you brides out there, just know this, your wedding day will come and go faster than you can say “i do.” so get a videographer!! sadly i couldn’t afford to have one. but! please make that part of your budget. so you can look back on it whenever you want and relive that day. seriously it is such a special thing.

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today is my two year anniversary. i can’t believe it. but the last two years of my life have been amazing. we have had our hard times but that is expected. but we also have a solid foundation in Christ and that allows us the grace to give each other in those hard times. and allows us to learn to love each other more through the hard times. and in turn, makes our relationship stronger. marriage isn’t easy. marriage is not going to solve the problems that you may currently have in your relationship. marriage is not a way to move out of mom and dads house. marriage is about blending two lives together that have never been blended. marriage is hard. but if you find someone that you love beyond a shadow of a doubt, then those worries won’t be able to stop from going through with it. because you know that you both will work through any problem that may try to come against you. and they will. but allow your love for each other to help guide you through it all.

so to the love of my life, happy anniversary. i love you more now than before.

xoxo

let’s get real

Published on March 7, 2017March 7, 2017 by meganaperezLeave a comment

do you guys ever have those days that you wish could just disappear and you could start over? like just get back into bed and restart everything. anyone? well i had one of those days today. seriously it was tough. and getting myself to stay in track with this blog is even tougher. because all i want to do is crawl back into bed and pretend like nothing happened. but i can’t. i have to put my big girl panties on and deal with it. as much as i hate even telling myself that.

the hardest thing for me is not being completely in love with my job. i like it. i love my co-workers but i really wish i could be doing something else to be honest. but like i’ve said in previous posts, this is where God has me right now. so i’ve been trying to make the best of it. well today, it wasn’t the best day. started out okay. but than i got to work and had this crazy migraine. then i didn’t even have a chance to make my coffee until lunch. and of course the migraine stayed all day. and some other issues happened at work that i won’t disclose, but let’s just say i couldn’t focus all day because of it. i just kept wishing that i would wake up and this would all be a dream. do you ever feel like that? Like if you sit and stare at the wall long enough you’ll wake yourself up from your nightmare and be able to start over and forget what you just went through. but the hardest thing for me sometimes is realizing that, staring at a wall isn’t going to wake me up. because i’m already in reality.

when you’re just a kid you don’t really understand what it means to be an adult. you live life carefree because your parents are taking care of you. they provide everything you need and want. so when a child thinks about what a grown ups life is like, at least for me, you think that someone will always be there to take care of you. someone will always be there to make you dinner or fold your clothes or make your bed. but the reality of it is, that’s not the case. when you grow up, and have to face tough situations, there isn’t anyone there to shield you from the pain. you just have to grin and bare it. you just have to take it in, realize you can’t change it, and figure out how to move on with your life.

there are so many things i could say, but as i’ve gotten older and my relationship with Christ has grown, it hasn’t always been a walk in the park. i think that’s a huge misconception that people have in regards to Christians. that we have it so easy, we don’t understand what the “real” world is all about. but that’s far from the truth. we still go through stuff. we still have bad days. we still get migraines and sometimes our bosses just make us so mad with decisions they make. that’s normal. but it’s how’s we deal with these situations that make us stand out as Christians.

today i had the opportunity to really tell someone off. i mean really give him a piece of my mind. i was angry. i felt it would have been well-deserved. this person has treated other co-workers of mine wrong, so i felt it was my duty to give him this long list of wrongs he’d done. and he even gave me the opportunity to speak my mind and share my thoughts with him about a situation. but within moments of me speaking, the only words that actually came out of my mouth were “i’m not concerned because God is in control.” my biggest opportunity and spotlight moment came down to those 8 words. “i’m not concerned because God is in control.”

i almost couldn’t believe myself after i said it. like “hey stupid this was your shot what are you doing?!?” and i still stuck with my first sentence. nothing changed. today i realized how much a persons actions can change the plans of God. today i realized how important it is for me to always be in His will and make sure that the decisions i make are what He wants me to make. because i really don’t know how my actions can affect others. and today, while i was sitting in that room, listening to this person speak to me, literally all i could think of was “i’m not concerned because God is in control.” and you know, i actually believe that. yes, i was angry in the moment and saddened, but i still know everything will be fine. i’m seeing day by day how God is shifting things and moving things into His perfect plan for us. it’s amazing. i’m so amazed at how God can take something He originally intended for good but man kind of jacked it up, and still make something beautiful out of it.

just know, no matter what you’re going through, God can still make something beautiful out of it. no matter what it is..

xoxo