today i wanted to share a topic that is very special to me, music. as a young child, i began to play the piano at the age of 6. when i first started playing, i just fell in love with how i could create beautiful sounds with my hands. i was obsessed with playing disney songs. any songs my teacher would bring for me to learn that was disney, i just loved. it made me feel like i was a princess in that story. i would even sing along for most of the songs that i learned. once i was diagnosed with leukemia at 8, i wasn’t able to play as often. but when i did get those spare moments, it became my escape. it was my chance to free myself from my current situation. i was able to live outside of my reality even for only a few moments. it was an amazing experience. one like no other.
i became amazed at a young age at how much music can affect one’s life and even mood. have you ever thought about that? how you can play one song and it will either make you happy or sad. most of the time without you even realizing it. music can even inspire you without you realizing it. that is the kind of power that it has over you.
granted, i went through a period of time where i stopped wanting to play piano. as i got older, with the effects the leukemia had on my body, i became more and more self-conscious. i just didn’t want to be seen doing anything that would draw attention to myself. i would even wait until everyone was out of the house so that i could practice and sing. those moments were what i looked forward to. even to this day, i have hard time playing in front of people because i just don’t like the attention that it draws to me. but regardless, i had this love that i couldn’t just let go of. for playing music or listening to music.
at a young age, i always wanted to be an artist. i wanted to be someone who created beautiful music. i wanted to be someone who was able to inspire someone or touch someones life with just a song. even at 26 years of age, i still have fear that holds me back from really creating something beautiful. but as the years have gone by, that fear has grown smaller and smaller. and i know that once i allowed myself to really be free again and create something, i will be free from that.
music for me touched my life in more ways that i can explain. it was the only outlet that i had during a touch time in my life. it was my only friend. it was the one person, aside from God, that could understand what i was going through. music was God talking to me. conversing with me on a daily basis through sound. and even though at that time i didn’t know who He really was, i knew that He was talking to me. drawing me closer to Him through this avenue. it’s amazing. there are no words to describe how it makes me feel. but i thank God that he allowed me the chance to grow a love for music.
that was my first experience with music. what was yours? tell me in the comment sections below, i’d love to hear your stories.