for years i’ve struggled with the thought of “size matters.” as i’ve gotten older, i’ve come realize that it really doesn’t. your size has nothing to do with who you are as a person. your size doesn’t control your character. your size doesn’t control your heart or your actions. so why is it that as women, we put so much emphasis on our size? as if, when we drop down a couple pounds our lives will somehow magically become perfect. that if we could just lose a couple of pounds, everything will be alright. and where has that thinking gotten us exactly? more and more young girls are growing up with these self-confidence issues that it is a little crazy. but i must admit to you, i used to buy into that thinking. for a long period of time, i bought into the whole “lose weight and you’ll be happy” idea. it was a very sad time in my life. all i cared about was losing weight. i tried every diet, took every weight loss pill, did the whole work out thing and nothing happened. surprise, surprise.
i soon realized how deep this problem really was. it wasn’t so much about losing weight as it was the thought that if i lost the weight, i would be accepted. i just wanted to belong. it was a hard time in my life let me tell you. it almost sucks to write about it, because it makes it that much more real! ugh! anyways..
being the perfect weight is hard for women, especially in the society we live in. where everywhere we turn there are gorgeous thin supermodels making us feel less than ourselves because we aren’t a size 0. i hate that. i hate that there are girls out there that are starving themselves to become something that God didn’t create them to be. as i’ve gotten older, i have realized that i will never be a size 0. and i’m perfectly okay with that. God created me just the way i am. i am beautiful. i am a daughter of the King! if you’re reading this, take a minute to say that yourself. tell yourself you are beautiful. tell yourself you are a daughter of the king. now go to the bathroom mirror, look yourself in the eyes, and say it again. it’s extremely powerful. i cry just thinking about it. our words have the power of life and death. and we have the power to control what we say about ourselves.
what really matters, is your heart. i think that is where a lot of the problem is. girls think that if they lose weight they will be accepted by everyone. but what happens when you lose that weight and people still don’t accept you because you are mean spirited? or when they find out how selfish you are? what are you going to do then? it doesn’t matter what size you are. people care more about your personality. your heart. how kind you are. how caring you are. that is what makes you, you. not what size jeans you wear!
i know this isn’t the longest post ever, but i hope after reading this you gained a little more confidence in yourself. knowing that you are beautiful. knowing that you were fearfully and wonderfully made. knowing that you are the daughter of a King. a King who, by the way, thinks you are the most beautiful version of you. who wouldn’t change a thing about the way you look. a King that cares more about your heart than what size clothes you wear. how many of us can say that about someone else?
is this something that you struggle with? leave a comment below and lets pray together! xoxo
white button down: old navy (btw this top is on crazy sale!!!! less than $10!!)
black skinny jeans: levi’s