Believe in yourself. This shirt is such a great reminder that I need to believe in myself. Like most women, I am emotional and have my moments where I doubt myself a lot. But I always have to remember that I am rooted in Christ.
When I was younger, I was diagnosed with Leukemia. It was such a hard time in my life. Because of that diagnosis, I, of course, had to go through chemotherapy. I gained weight. I lost all my hair. I didn’t feel pretty at all. It was a hard time for me, to be very honest. It was hard to feel like a girl. I tried wigs, bandanas, nothing really helped. Then one day I looked at myself in the mirror and thought, “This is who I am. This happened for a reason. And I’m okay with it.” Once I let that thought sink in more, it became my mentality. Leukemia happened. It happened for a reason. And I’m okay with that. But, as I got older, I noticed the side effects sinking in. While I was able to tell myself, that I was okay with what happened to me, I wasn’t able to deny the fact that I had days where I still didn’t feel pretty. Or worth anything. Kids made fun of me at school. People stared at me as I walked by. I couldn’t deny that those feelings were very real.
As I’ve gotten older, I can safely say that I am more confident in who I am and who God created me to be. Is it easy? No way. I still have days where I don’t feel confident in myself. But this is who I am. This is how God created me. And I’m starting to love it. As women, we have so many unique qualities about us that men sometimes cannot understand. And that’s okay. It’s what makes us special. Everyday I’m learning to believe in myself a little more. I’m learning to see myself the way God sees me. As beautiful. As His daughter. As His creation. I’m learning to lean on Him more and more each day and I love it.
If you are reading this, know that you are beautiful. You were created in Gods image. You are perfect. Do not let anyone tell you otherwise. We need to lift each other up as women. And that is my goal with this blog, the reason I wanted to start this.
I can say, 15 years later, I am completely healed. Praise God! But my whole testimony is for another time. I hope you’ve enjoyed reading this and learning a little bit about me. Please, leave a comment below, I’d love to connect with you!
Sweatshirt: Shiloh Z Boutique
Glasses: Tory Burch